Month: May 2021

Morning here. Need my nap soon. Which I should already..

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I love morning time. What I mean by, where it’s around 8am, like that. Misty fog start to get clear. Cool breeze yet, there’s sunlight already. Leaves full with small spots of water.. It’s feel fresh and calm, which I really love to feel again.

But, as my sleep schedule just mess, I just feel I need to fix it. I need to. At the same time, which I think it’s not only me, but many others out there, where – the more we try to fix, the more it’s not working. I’ve been in for long time. I don’t like that. I love to go walk around my house ground, seeing flowers and my small garden.. Which now I’m not doing it, but after Eid, I’ll back to it.

So, it’s hard. Sleep is important. To some, it’s matter of hours of sleep. They don’t mind about at night or morning, any time, if you sleepy, just go. Which I agree. But I have things that need to be done, every day, so need sunlight – natural light, since I do outdoor work. Only at night I’ll be able to do my artworks.

I read some said – if you up and walk in early of morning, not only it’s good for physical, but also to mind, mentally and emotionally. It’s boost our overall health, which I think it’s true. Also for like our focus?. I think. That’s why I feel like I need to fix. For people who have hard time to fall asleep, really, we’re not joking about we can’t sleep or hardly to lay down, close our eyes, and just like that, sleep. No, it’s crazy. Even the sleep schedule is good, for sometime, after awhile it can break and the cycle to fix it, not easy.

A bit pressure to do it. But to me, I just need to, and after Ramadan, I hope I can. I hope for people who deal with the same thing, and wanted to fix it, hopefully you can..!

Okayyy. I love that sunlight, specially to photograph my artworks. But nap first..!

Last night was tough. Had panadols for headache. It’s not always headache, it could be migraine. Isn’t it?

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Our sahur is around 5.15am. Like that, I mean. So this was my sahur for today (since in morning, AM). Rice with baked chicken, parents bought it. With few leaves of round cabbage, and Milo. Lastly, a glass of water. Had quater of jacket fish, in my language ikan cencaru sumbat sambal (sambal filled). It’s where, the back bone of the fish is cut, pocket cut. Then fill with chilies, onion, which is smash using lesung. Then fry the fish. All bought, I didn’t cook it for this time around. Maybe I will. Just don’t know when.

I had migraine, just last night. And some dizziness, after woke up hours ago. So, I guess maybe it was because of how fast I got up.

My thoughts on this matter, I kind of worry. To think deep and want to know what causes it?. I feel dilemma to know even. I could say I have panadol, which is paracetamol, where I can get it almost every store, any kind of store. I have frequently, sometimes. Sometimes I don’t at all. To talk about health matter, well, we all have it. Even for it, we need money. It’s a painful reality to learn that you want to be healthy – in terms of dealing with pain, physically like illness or fever, to get better, you need money.. For swab test in pandemic, you need to pay.

What I learned about headache and migraine so far, it’s somehow how our body signal to us, what we lack in whatever inside. It’s the same system in our blood. You know – virus or bacteria in, white blood cells fighting. Yea, that’s the one. Our body has its own unique system. But some go the other way around, which it’s really sad when we know and learn.

Since it’s fasting month, maybe I should drink more water. Our body just can signal us, but to know what we lack of, of course it’s on us.

I hope no more headache, migraine, and dizziness in next few days. I want things, my body and health, all healthy. I think like everyone else wants.

Whoever read this, I wish you all in good health. Stay safe..!