Movie: Little Forest – Summer/Autumn and Winter/Spring

September here already, and I missed to blog out.

I take this opportunity to set my first post on movie!. I love movies. And this one just how I feel now and consider almost how I feel these days.

I love this movie.

That’s it. I love it. I can’t really remember when I first watch it, but I just love it.

To start, this is not review or critics. It’s just opinion, personally at the end of the day. As a consumer and a fans of film and drama.

As the title, it’s Japanese movies. I recall, and not expect at all that I will love both of the movie titles. The focus of course, is surrounded by the main character. As she lives and do her daily basis, routine in her small hometown. She creates foods, using almost all around her area’s ground and natural sources for survival.

In these movies, each season set from first dish to seven. Of course, selected dish to be on point. Showing also, her daily life to live, by farming and gardening. Harvest whatever that she plant or found in forest nearby. Also insert point, such as how she will dry up source for foods in hard time such as in the winter months, which plants and source that suitable in a cook (like frying or boiling and such), and her relationship, friendship with her suddenly-away mother..

To highlight, how every dish is being shown to prepare, clean, and cook, and serve. Even I myself feel like “okay, I’m going to cook that food”!

Another reason, I love these movies, of course because it’s personal relatedness in my life, as in daily basis, that I have to do or deal.

As you can see, my post on gardening and cooking. Which I still uhh.. Need to keep up to blog.. Lately I’ve been busy!. But I’ll try. So….. It’s related to my reality and how enjoy I am when I watched these movies.

The vibes. I think the vibes also, give me the feeling to be out and surround myself with greens and soil. It gives the feeling of the smell of nature, with the choice of music, songs for these movies. And most of it, it projecting the energy – the energy to me, for me to get on my gear, to do physical activity, to be at the moment of doing the physical work and enjoy the process.

Overall, these movies tell that, if you love your idea of what life is about, go for it. Even if to some feel like it’s going to be a bit hard or not fancy as live in big city, it’s alright – it’s back to you, how you feel like the most, and what life is all about, to you, at the end, just go for it….(?)

I recommend these, to whoever out there, if you love gardening, landscaping, and cooking, these two movies is so good.

Alright. I’ll try to keep up with my cooking section, soon. It might be simple since I missed many of my cooking…!

Gardening: New Black Soil

Take my time here, at midnight. I think it’s just with midnight.. Since I got sleep schedule problem..?

Last weekend, or really if it’s last weekend?. Or this week..??. I forgot.. But never mind. I went to supermarket, with big brother, and got a chance to buy a thing that I kind of to say I craving – soil.

Yes, soil.

I bought black soil..!

Yea, I’m excited. Because the thing is I did my own soil mix, from our home ground. Obviously not so much of nutrients available for a plant that I try to plant, in a pot, which mean quantity of soils that I mix and space are limited.

As said, I bought 2 only. For now and test.

Okay. Before that, I did remove my stunted Spinach, from small red box to big blue box. I removed ones that stunted only, as you can see. On big blue box, I set a space from each one of it. To see how all Spinach will grow soon.

Before that, soils in these 2 boxes are my own mixture, from our home ground. Both look a bit different.

Later on, well.. I realized, there was no home ground soil. I decided to make my own blend of soil mix, after seeing the texture of the black soil I bought. It’s soft, to what I recall right now. I still remember how soft it is. So yea, once did collect some soil, mixture of a bit of sand, old wooden table that decay after awhile, and red soil.. I just added to the pot, it’s plastic pot by the way, lost in my room/house. I don’t know how that happened actually..

As from the package, I added around 45%, of home ground mix?. If I guess.

Mix it all well. Just as I wanted. And back to the stunted Spinach, from small red box, I removed 7 of it, into the pot. So…. Now I just have to wait and see, how it will grow. It will adjust by themselves, as from my observations, so far.

But weird, at least to me I mean, that some of my Spinach growing well in less spacious pot…. Like.. Hm?

I don’t know, but still working on all of these. So, I need coffee grounds.. As soon as possible, for my Bitter Gourd plants.. More like emergency now.

Let’s see how things go. Need a nap.. Night world. I hope that things get better soon.

Some Thoughts: Life Phase?

It’s been awhile.

I did some changes on this section, “Some Talk” to “Some Thoughts”, because I’m not talking but just writing.. So, yeah.

Still ongoing MCO. The thing is, done my first vaccine alhamdulillah..!. Please do get yours, don’t wait.

Lately.. There’s something about, I’ve been thinking or wondering. As some of my posts about – a turning point in our lives. This time something that, kind of play role in life itself. As we human, not only enjoy our time, doing something we love only, there’s something that along with all we doing, I think.

This is my bitter gourd plants that grows healthy, so far..! Hope they all grow out well soon.

As I’ve been working on my veggies, gardening, and clean up my sisters’ room, sometimes some thing like, bang up time to time in my mind. It’s not my thing to talk about or even mention in conversation, usually, but, it’s just like wondering..?. I mean – love.

Here are just my personal opinion or view. I say it as in generally, to me.

But, as human, we have feelings. And so it’s effects our physical, emotions, and soul. The thing is, I just like, I don’t know what to say or comments when come to the topic. Say, some people can straight forward saying how much they want to be married and have family. Or, what kind of date night they would want to set. Many other things, in this one particular life phase, I called it?.

But it becomes one of that I can’t really say like many others do. Reason is, I think, because how many stories about it are just.. Sadden me up..?.

Somehow somewhat, it’s give me some kind of dilemma. Caught in between?. I believe some people do feel like it. I think it’s because how some stories being share or news that we hear, watch, or read, or know, involved two people, in love, but the relationship – somehow, not working, abuse involved, and many more, that I can’t even write in here.. It’s just sad, because we know that love is something beautiful – at least what we’ve been told.

Love – one thing that I think, it’s a feeling that stands of from many feelings and emotions. Like, crying. Could it be a joyful one, or hurtful one. It’s a feeling that involves intimacy, conquering physical, emotional, and mental and soul. So.. It’s supposed to be all in are beautiful, isn’t it?.

And if it’s beautifully all ways, surround us, it’s must be something that not pressuring or stressing, aren’t it?. I think, it’s human that cause it’s a hurt and broken matter or topic these days. And because of this, I just don’t know what to say or comments.. But some will say, happen to them. Well.. I could say, to some people, they have one in this world. And to some others, they may not meant to.. And this is just so, so hurt to me to know.. Because, somehow somewhat, it’s most people that full with love, effort, care, and such, that not get what they deserve.. In this time of era. Like, seriously..

This is a topic. And it’s totally different in every each one of us, so, I can’t say much. Just I don’t know when come to this matter, and “I don’t know” or “entah lah” in my language is usually added in my answer at the end, when relatives open talk. I say my opinion then I don’t know. Just that, it’s unclear, I guess. With how human these days?. Yea, love is fading.

Some Thoughts: Half Year MCO

It’s been awhile, but I think it’s alright.. Try to keep up again, and again.. That’s me I guess..?

How about you out there?

Here again, as I just sat on wooden chair, outside of our home, with my little sister’s cat, Sepet. The air was just nice, cool, and of course it is as I shot this about less than 10 minutes before 7pm.. My country time.

Nothing much I do. I just sat and patted Sepet, while chill out, look at the sky.. Few days ago there was rain, non stop, and two days already no rain and sunny day, hot, you can even hang some clothes and it will dry and crisp.. I like the smell somehow..

Like early this year, and now passed half year, my country still on MCO – Movement Control Order. As we know, pandemic still happening and sad to know that 6 days before Tokyo Olympic 2020 start, we got the news at the Olympic Village.. I really hope to watch it when it starts soon, of course to watch my athletes from my country to go one on one, at least there’s something we can do while facing MCO and pandemic and all.. Not feeling so off at home and reality.

But, although it’s half year already, I still dealing with personal matter, privately personal matter, which I like to call and totally no details or what’s so.. I dealt once, early this year. But I don’t know why or what, but I started to wonder again – are we really like, can feel like we’re in change to the next phase of life?. Like from baby, to adolescent, to adult, but that’s physical. I mean in spirituality or something like we’re getting old or something like, has to do with our soul..?. Like, from party and carefree and without realize, slowly we like change – like we’re not like who we used to be, like a year ago?.

I think, and believe that many of us do feel it. I don’t know personally, but I just wonder, maybe it is?.

Yet.. Somehow somewhat, some people have or get the best way of life, in their lives.. Some didn’t, or people said “not your time yet”. Which I just don’t know about it, or what to say.. Because some people, did everything as best as they could ever give. Yet.. It’s like, they hurt in same thing, same way, just from different people in their lives or matter, specifically I mean.. It’s really something that, they wish they could erase or not go through it.. Life, it’s weird.

Well, I guess.. That’s what life is?

Even in this pandemic, we see lots of things – from politic, to economy, to society help each other, some part protest, some fight, weather it’s for good reason, it happens when there’s bad….?.

Like, the Moon even shine in dark, with stars around. Like sunlight after rainstorm, there’s rainbow.. Life, ups and downs, what goes around, come around.. We human, and life itself, has a phase, I think..?.

Crazy, isn’t it…..?

Well, see if you can spot the Moon at early twilight from my photos. Stay safe people.

Gardening: New Port And Kangkung Bin

It’s kind of cloudy day, but it’s sunny most of the day.

No update since last one, a week before Eid Day, I just so busy plus, my phone have battery life problem which I don’t like it at all.

I’ve decided to set new area for my gardening. After Eid Day, my old area, which I did wrote about it in here, turned out totally messed.

Wild bushes just grew taller and packed, surrounded the area. Those woods that I used for fence, all down. As the result, I choose to go with where I don’t need to be mess with mud, which it’s front of my house/room area.

Photos above, where I replaced my kangkung veggie, which my favorite and family, and okay for my father to have it in meals.

I decided to go with the method, by using old bins that I found around our home. And soil?. Yes, I made that soil as you can see in the photos. Which I softing it from where I dug up. Mixed with naturally composed leaves, that fell, of course. Hoe-ing and gloves, with my hands, I just mixed up the soil.

I go with my old kangkung, first photo above, and some parts of it, I used kangkung‘s roots from market, which my parents bought it. Of course, not all from market one survive, almost all not this time around. While ones where I picked, almost all started grew new leaves. Make me happy with hope soon, like another 2 weeks, at least, growing more leaves. And wait until they blooms their flowers, so I can get their seeds.

Yes, I used plastic packages to plant seeds. I think it’s alright, as long as it all grow out?

The first photo, the day I seedlings. After 5 days, kangkung‘s seeds, first pack sprouts out. And third photo, late evening yesterday I snapped it. And yes, as today is my outdoor work day, I might relocate them, in their new bin bed. Maybe. Since they all still small.

My new area, it’s just small, but it’s alright as I don’t need extra work to cover, to clear grass that grows something like that. But the extra on the part where I need to do my own mixture of soils, and bring a bag of it to transfer it in to the bin. Have some other bins to fill, so it’s really take time with new area now. But of course it’s not just kangkung. There’s some other too. Will update once I can. Kind of busy actually, with rest and chilling too, of course.

New post soon, any what that I’ll up in here.

Some Thoughts: Sleep Schedule And Sleeping

Morning here. Need my nap soon. Which I should already..

I love morning time. What I mean by, where it’s around 8am, like that. Misty fog start to get clear. Cool breeze yet, there’s sunlight already. Leaves full with small spots of water.. It’s feel fresh and calm, which I really love to feel again.

But, as my sleep schedule just mess, I just feel I need to fix it. I need to. At the same time, which I think it’s not only me, but many others out there, where – the more we try to fix, the more it’s not working. I’ve been in for long time. I don’t like that. I love to go walk around my house ground, seeing flowers and my small garden.. Which now I’m not doing it, but after Eid, I’ll back to it.

So, it’s hard. Sleep is important. To some, it’s matter of hours of sleep. They don’t mind about at night or morning, any time, if you sleepy, just go. Which I agree. But I have things that need to be done, every day, so need sunlight – natural light, since I do outdoor work. Only at night I’ll be able to do my artworks.

I read some said – if you up and walk in early of morning, not only it’s good for physical, but also to mind, mentally and emotionally. It’s boost our overall health, which I think it’s true. Also for like our focus?. I think. That’s why I feel like I need to fix. For people who have hard time to fall asleep, really, we’re not joking about we can’t sleep or hardly to lay down, close our eyes, and just like that, sleep. No, it’s crazy. Even the sleep schedule is good, for sometime, after awhile it can break and the cycle to fix it, not easy.

A bit pressure to do it. But to me, I just need to, and after Ramadan, I hope I can. I hope for people who deal with the same thing, and wanted to fix it, hopefully you can..!

Okayyy. I love that sunlight, specially to photograph my artworks. But nap first..!

Some Thoughts: Headache And Dizzy

Last night was tough. Had panadols for headache. It’s not always headache, it could be migraine. Isn’t it?

Our sahur is around 5.15am. Like that, I mean. So this was my sahur for today (since in morning, AM). Rice with baked chicken, parents bought it. With few leaves of round cabbage, and Milo. Lastly, a glass of water. Had quater of jacket fish, in my language ikan cencaru sumbat sambal (sambal filled). It’s where, the back bone of the fish is cut, pocket cut. Then fill with chilies, onion, which is smash using lesung. Then fry the fish. All bought, I didn’t cook it for this time around. Maybe I will. Just don’t know when.

I had migraine, just last night. And some dizziness, after woke up hours ago. So, I guess maybe it was because of how fast I got up.

My thoughts on this matter, I kind of worry. To think deep and want to know what causes it?. I feel dilemma to know even. I could say I have panadol, which is paracetamol, where I can get it almost every store, any kind of store. I have frequently, sometimes. Sometimes I don’t at all. To talk about health matter, well, we all have it. Even for it, we need money. It’s a painful reality to learn that you want to be healthy – in terms of dealing with pain, physically like illness or fever, to get better, you need money.. For swab test in pandemic, you need to pay.

What I learned about headache and migraine so far, it’s somehow how our body signal to us, what we lack in whatever inside. It’s the same system in our blood. You know – virus or bacteria in, white blood cells fighting. Yea, that’s the one. Our body has its own unique system. But some go the other way around, which it’s really sad when we know and learn.

Since it’s fasting month, maybe I should drink more water. Our body just can signal us, but to know what we lack of, of course it’s on us.

I hope no more headache, migraine, and dizziness in next few days. I want things, my body and health, all healthy. I think like everyone else wants.

Whoever read this, I wish you all in good health. Stay safe..!

Some Thoughts: Need More Energy..

Sleep schedule, well, not sure how I can fix it.

Just done with sahur. So I had rice, without veggie.. Which I feel like wish I did.. Well, with chicken merah (red), and dessert called, I don’t know exactly but it tastes like kuih seri muka, yet it looks like kuih talam. I love traditional desserts, so many of it, specially in Ramadan. Just limited for this year also, as we living in new norm. I just.. Ugh. Hope all this pandemic things, go away fast. And of course, energy drink, Milo. And lastly, a glass of water.

So, last year’s Ramadan, a week plus few days, before Eid Day. I ended up sleeping and woke up late. No cooking for the last week of the Ramadan. Which I wondered why, at the time. And here again, I started to noticed the same thing. Quite worry, to say that I started to feel like it. While knowing that I, had meal for berbuka (break fast), and sahur, kinda well – which includes carbs, protein, vitamin, and sugar. Maybe too much of dessert because, well, I love it haha. But it’s strange that I started to feel un-energetic. Which thing that I so worry since, because I’ll fall asleep and ended up late, and no cooking.. I don’t like it..

So far, I control whatever I have to. My diet specially. But sleep hmm.. I think it’s the cause?. To my un-energetic phase?. It’s like graft chart – from top, to drop.. Like, what’s going on to be exact.. But I hope it’s just a normal phase. As there’s short documentary explain about this kind of conditions, happen in Ramadan.

So yea. I think and hopefully, it’s just a phase. And I hope, after this, I can get back to my gardening, which I can’t wait to play with soil, and make my front house full with pots and greensss.

Some Thoughts: Sleepiness..?

Yesterday’s just I consider myself really sleepy. Even I had a nap, it was totally not a good one. Should I be worried?

So I had rice, a small portion of mackerel, and lettuce salad leaves, so far two leaves only. A mug of Milo, a kuih pelita (Malay traditional dessert), and last one, a glass of water. But additional half a glass, after that. And forgot to have a slice of wholemeal bread with peanut butter and jam or strawberry jam, so I would be feeling full, through out the day of fasting.. And I totally forgot..

My sleep schedule just a mess, even before this year’s Ramadan.

And last night, at midnight, I was totally sleepy. The thing is, the sleepiness, how I can describe it as – partial sleepy, between wanting to stay awake, but don’t want to be both either conditions. Kind of worry, as sleep is a need and play role in our lives as human. I don’t know what the cause, I wonder sometimes. But at the same time, thinking about it can lead to some other wondering. If you get what I mean.

So, usually, I just go with how my body feel. Yea, there was time, being like this and suddenly, just like snap – sleepiness kicked in, I was so sleepy, I just wanted to sleep. It’s like, our body can fix, alter some of stuff or what our body needs to be able to make a move when we up in the morning. Crazy if to think, right?. Like white blood cells trying to fight some bacteria or virus, if it get in to our body. Amazing.

Well, guess I should. So yea, a nap. Thinking about what to cook, every day.. My brain need a rest too, right. So give ourselves a time to relax, chill, rest, lazy, once awhile.

Maybe it’s just like a medicine to some we want to fix, a little bit. Like sleep schedule.

Some Thoughts: Misty Morning

Just done watch series on Netflix, of course, for now. Still continue the series.

Can say it’s very foggy, misty today. I decided to take a nap in living room, near my work desk. Since it’s monsoon season, my state experience thunder and heavy rain. Hardly to see blue sky, for awhile and missing it, actually.

Maybe for now, this section will be what I’ll be doing. And sahur thing, thought, like that.. Not bad for me. I hope anyone who read, enjoy it.

As photo above, my sahur. Just same one from our break fast, early yesterday’s night. It’s tomato rice, Ayamas chicken, and lettuce salad leaves. Had donut, Milo, and last one – a glass of water.

Watch Netflix series and, thinking about my sleep schedule, which I feel like, seriously not good.. I didn’t feel really sleepy like I used to. I feel like I need that sleepy, so I can just sleep, right after lay on bed, like some people who born just like that – sleep. Lucky them.

Thinking also about my gardening routine. As I can’t keep up with it, for now. As I have my nap after dawn. While in the after noon, thunder and rain cloud already above. Lightning appear and sound loud, scared me. Even on other time, if there’s thunder and lightning, I wouldn’t go outside. If I’m gardening at the time, I’ll just have to stop. Raining season and energy, uhm hehh kind of drop.. So, just don’t force ourselves, right?. Maybe after Ramadan, I’ll get back to it. Really hope that.

As for today, I think I’ll cook something. Additional menu, I have just to wait. It’s pass dawn already, sunlight appear and mist slowly gone.. And, now, just a nap.